it’s been a while since I prayed,

but last night I did.

it’s scary and exciting,

sitting here in the bed I came to know,

but won’t be sleeping in again.

goodbye bed, and goodbye free wireless.

too many cigarettes I smoked,

while wondering out your window.

I needed reassurance, but more than that,

guidance.

look, it might come across at times,

with me and my need for adventure,

that I’m adventurous.

maybe.

but it’s also scary.

friends back home,

with their wives,

and their jobs,

and a television remote,

that’s usually in the usual place.

could never be me,

but I long for the familiarity.

so yes, I needed something,

and I asked for it.

finished with the standard ending,

got up and smoked again,

came back to see there was a project 9 hours west,

wayyyyy out in the desert if I wanted it.

no pay, but room-and-board.

I was tempted, taking that as a sign,

but in the end,

kept packing my mental bag for Ethiopia.

got up this morning,

thought ‘what the heck’

and tried the ATM once more.

and once more, it gave me $200.

taking my grand total to $250.

thank you banks, for not speaking in real-time.

I promise to pay it all back, at some point.

but, as many have said before,

‘this isn’t Africa’.

and I want to get to Africa.

and, funnily enough,

I’m heading there tonight.

what a wonderful thing to be able to say.